Update on Life

Well I have had another couple of weeks of long hours at the office. I have been so tired after work that I haven't felt like getting on the computer or anything else. I last posted about my time with the support group. I think that it took me a long time to realize that I needed help. I still struggle with being labeled "infertile", for example, I cried last night when I got home about it. (This could have been the result of not getting home until 10:15pm from work, but who knows.) Dealing with infertility or secondary infertility (as I am learning about in the books) is a hard thing to swallow, so by accepting that I needed a group to support me who understood has helped. I don't like feeling like I am broken, but unfortunately I am. I have learned that just because parts of me are broken, it does not mean that all of me is broken. I am still working on not feeling totally broken that but I am making progress.
On the Foster Parents front, I called the agency (because I was starting to freak) and found out that the training starting in January was being held in Tuscaloosa, but there would be one in Birmingham starting in April. After discussion with Paul, we decided to wait on the training so that we could focus on what we wanted to do in our own lives regarding fertility. We decided that we were going to put our efforts to the max over the next few months, and if we were still unsuccessful after that, we would take at least a 6 month break from doctors and the stress of it all. I pray that will not be the case, but I trust that God's timing is perfect even if I can't understand it. With that being said, please be in prayer for us over the next couple of months as we empty our pocketbooks, calendar, and souls into trying to make a baby.

Thanks and Love to you all,
Samantha